Biyernes, Pebrero 13, 2015

LIFE SHARING - PAINTBALL GAME


PAINTBALL - LIFE SHARING

Wayback November 2013, on our blog sharing I wrote about that life is like a boxing.  We can read it again and again to remind ourselves that life is not easy, unless you are motivated, inspired and have a definitive plan “life structure survival” to execute till your journey in life ends.

Yesterday, February 12, 2015 we attended and participated on the 3rd Annual Team Building that was hosted by Al Ain Holdings and Al Dahra Agriculture at Al Forsan International Sports Resort at Khalifa City UAE.  We have attended several team building on most occasions and we can definitely say that this is an event wherein we can pause for a while from the work toxics of corporate world where we enjoyed participating on all sorts of sports or tasks which teamwork should be the main factor for winning. But what is the real meaning of Team Building? Just to recap, in Wikipedia this is how it defines “Team building is the use of different types of team
interventions that are aimed at enhancing social relations and clarifying team members' roles, as well as solving task and interpersonal problems that affect team functioning.  There are many different definitions for team building we can get, regardless of how they define this two connecting words which is more likely to be the same, it would only fall to one word definition with finishing touch…”UNITY and APPLICATION.  It specifies the importance of knowing your role and teamwork to make a given task accomplished and successful in real world.  Do I need to mention that this is very important on our work? On our companies? Nah nah. Absolutely this is part of that purpose.

As for me, I decided to participate on this event expecting something different, something that I could learn and compare from my own personal life and other’s life. That is why on the first paragraph of this blog sharing, I mentioned about life symbolized by a boxing sport.  But by the way, I would like to crack this blog sharing into two separate points.  You think we can still finish this blog sharing? I am still at work and not that busy because gladly there is no office today and its already 4:13pm. Hahahah, I will miss again the service bus.  But no worries, I’m used to it. Toinks! 

So here we go.  The sports on the event yesterday are go cart racing, paintball, archery and shooting. Unfortunately we didn’t have the chance to participate on the shooting because we came to the venue late for some reasons, otherwise we would be champions, asa pa! hahahaha.  Well we have a chance for sure if kernel and Sir Otep is with us, they will be busted up, hak hak. I remember vividly Sir Arnel told me last week that we will be bringing the championship to Sheikh Hamdan Palace and those trophies and medals displayed on our cafeteria are bogus and should be replace with real golds.  Did I have any doubts on my mind? Nah… nah…after all Sir Arnel is an Archery player wayback, naks! Sir.. if you read this, my treat huh? Hahahaha. (kidding).

My friends, bro and sis, blog readers this I what I learned and I want to share it with you. Let’s breakdown one game per blog. (We need to divide our sharing because this is too long, I have
Much to share with you guys). hahaha


-PAINTBALL GAME-

I remember the moment when we wear our paintball battle suite, I am imagining how it is like to be a soldier and preparing for a battle. Though I want to seize the moment and enjoy I need to think that I am heading for a real war to fight and survive, fire with fire. This is what I am here for, to learn something and understands that when this is all over and the smoke is clear, I could see the real world with no further explanations.  To start with, we have our briefing (rules and mechanics) our gear is on ready for battle. 
This is the moment, while we are heading to the area I am thinking that this is the battlefield, no turning back, I need to get out a here alive when this is all over as a gazed the dome shape venue.  When we enter inside the ambiance is quite different and the ground is muddy, not a good idea that I wear white shoes that time, grrrrr. I need to clean hard afterwards or else I will have a lecture from my baby wife. Ahehehehe. By the way, the first game was elimination.  There were two teams, black and red, and we are the red team, approximately I think we are almost 20 each team.  So we need to eliminate each and every member of the other team for us to win, this is last man standing.  You will be out of the game once you are hit in the helmet and the chest, no shooting at the back and close range shooting for about or less than meter distance? As far as I remember after all, the bullet will hurt you badly if you don’t have gears and helmet, we are talking a paintball gun that shoots with at a standard velocity of 200mph, enough to pop up your eye and which will cause you to be blind and even to some other parts of your body when you got hit. Awwwww! 

So to make this short, we were deployed, we are standing our base positions on defense mode. First thing that comes to my mind, I need to survive and not get hit. I need a strategy, this is not
about fire with fire, not about bravery I need to use my head and analyze the situation.  I recall what does the man told us on the briefing that we will be eliminated and considered as dead if we got hit on the helmet and the front vest and including if you are already out of bullet. As far as I remember, hahaha. I started to fire one shot just to feel the situation and move from the other side of the wall, I noticed that I can’t run that fast because the floor is muddy, though this is a game we need to win and somehow take it seriously, again I reminded myself this is what I came for to learn and understand life.  Firing from all areas,  you can  hear the sound of the paintball bullet hitting all places, its’ like a rain, like a real war.  I covered myself for a while and can still feel the impact of the bullets hitting the wall to which I am hiding, this is a wooden wall.  I remember that moment if that is a real bullet, I’m dead. They are shooting there and there, I need to be cautious while advancing to the other side.  I remember I eliminated atleast 3 participants, and one by one I could see that some members from the other team was eliminated and for us too, one by one they were taken out, others have been hit and others runs out of bullet. I just keep myself thinking and thinking and make myself safe while firing and attacking, after all I am thinking as well that its only a matter of time I will be caught, on the other side as well I am thinking that  the game will end and we will be declared as the winner. I am getting tired running through the muds and running side by side, I couldn’t even see clearly because my helmet now is blurred due perspiration evaporation.  Again I am aware that my team mates had been eliminated one by one, it’s hard to go from here, how can we win if we are running out of members? Maybe this time we are only 5 or even 4 including me. I am half now of the area, there is no need to make any advances on position, I just need to make good hiding position to hit and not get hit (sounds like Floyd Mayweather huh? Hhahaha) I’m not doing shoulder roll, hehe. At one point I know that I will be eliminated even how hard I tried to be careful and cautious, this is my first experience of the game and somehow I know that there were participants who used to play the game and that would end my existence on the dome battlefield. I heard and saw that the facilitators saying it’s over. They are the one who is like a referee calling the shot if you are eliminated during the course of the game . Sound of firing stops  It’s over. I am tired.  I went back to our camp and straight ahead to the safe area to where the eliminated individuals has been standing. When I am walking they are smiling and laughing.. hahaha sounds like we won??? Somebody yelling at that we won, but to my surprise it is only that time that I know that they are smiling and telling me that I survived. I am the only one left on my team that had survived. What??? I thought they are  kidding but it is. The strategy works for me but unfortunately we are lose the match since from the other team they are still 4.  For me it doesn’t matter if we lose, the only thing that I know that moment is that I learned something.  Second round of the game has been on, I was selected to be the president for some reasons why, maybe im cute? No objection please J President needs to be protected, for a team to be able to win, the President needs to reach the other camp safely and not get hit, otherwise game over.  Again, I think again of a strategy and share it with them while we are preparing, but one of the member of my team refused to, and make his way to lead the plan and strategy, I think that moment that this guy knows the sport very well and I need to listen maybe he is always playing this kind of game. So we trust and do what He wants. Fast forward, we are loosers again for the second time. I didn’t have the chance to fight back and fire back or have my own movements or call my shots…I just only think that time that we don’t have a chance because, I was hit while sitting at the corner to where I was put to hide. My finger got hit and my right leg, it really hurts.  I actually have bruised on my left leg when I checked before I sleep that night.  I was a bit disappointed because the plan that was supposed to be a winning plan or strategy didn’t work because obviously there is no plan at all when I analyzed the situation. We trusted this guy to lead us to winning and only to found out that He just leave me behind only to get hit which I couldn’t even see who is shooting me. From that time I noticed that I don’t have anymore defender on my left and right side, because I was being hit and suddenly the troops from the other team walked in front of me and we are conquered.

Nahnah…hmmmm. Atlast it’s over. While we are walking outside to head to the next game, I talked to one guy on the other team and congratulated him and his team, I think He is a british.  I told them that we didn’t make it because I am only sleeping at the back and when I woke up it’s over, then He laughs, he told me he enjoyed the game and I told him I enjoyed as well. Then I asked him, can he imagine the life of the soldiers? On real wars? On how they risked and sacrificed their life to defend each and every one of us? It is not a joke, they leave their families to perform their duties and what happened to them? He just smiled at me and I didn’t got the answer that I want from him. 

That time when we are walking towards the next game I could hardly think of what happened to our Filipino soldiers namely “The Fallen 44” who are killed/massacred at Mamasapano, Maguindano Philippines on January 25, 2015. We know what happened.  Could you imagine the fight that they went through? I am only playing a paintball game and yet I can feel the risks and dangers, I understand well the need to survive and go back to the safe field alive.  These soldiers on a real world doesn’t have a chance to survive when they are crossing the death valley of wars, they didn’t even make to return to their beloved families alive.  I feel sorry for them, yet I salute their dedication and courage. It just happened that something was wrong that caused their lives, I think everything was wrong and not in their favor.  For us to be able to understand something, we need put ourselves on that situation, and the paintball game that I participated is one prime example.  Do I understand and learned something? Absolutely! Are you happy with what you have now? I don’t think so, check yourselves.  We are sleeping safe and sound at our houses, we are complaining most of the time, it seems like that we are the most unfortunate people in the world, though we have most of the things that other people is lacking, we are un-contented and not happy.  Whereas these soldiers risk everything for how much salary? they are eating canned sardines and a 5 years combat shoes? Are you kidding me? Where in the blue hell is that?  Hmmmm paintball… the game that I played, how could I connect something from this word “paintball” Let’s do something like this.  Since this is a two word combined together let’s make it separate like “ Paint” and Ball” and let us wrap up from here.  What is the first thing that comes into  your mind about “paint”? How about the word “ball” ?  Naturally, this is color and circle.  Wherein on the other perspective if we could just imagine, “Paint” for us is a variety of colors mixed, light or dark it could not only produces color “perse” but more than that is a picture of life whether it is colorful or not.  A “ball” is a round-shape thing which even when you tilt it would produce the same shape, there is up and down like the north and south pole. You know the best thing that you could do to a ball? Just place it in your hands and turn in round and round and round until you decided to stop, now check the brand name engraved on the ball if there is, maybe it is molten or Wilson? Where is now? on the upper part or lower part? On the left side or right side? In the middle? But you know the best thing that you could do? You could decide for yourself to where would you like to positioned this brand name. It’s all in our hands.

Just like from the previous blog sharing that we have, life is like a boxing sport.  Paintball really does as well, it does make sense.  But like all of these sports, we can get exhausted and we ended up stopping, our life is shaking and we quit. How can we understand life and win the life battle? It all depends on if you have the right perspective in life, the right mentor you could trust and the right motivation.  Do you know the secret? actually it is not really a secret,  you just need to open your eyes up there. Look up! He has your life, you just need to fully give it to Him and let Him take over and you will never ever lose any kind of battle. GOD’s purpose for you will prevail.


Sabado, Enero 31, 2015

TOP PRIORITY

TOP PRIORITY

Just now mga friends and blog readers, GOD reminded me of something more important than anything else in this world. We have our possessions that truly matters especially on our basic needs for ourselves and for our family.  Don’t get me wrong coz there’s nothing wrong with having a convenient life, having
a nice house, a car, business name it there’s nothing wrong with that when you have overall control on these things. It is really absurd that most of us are on the reverse side wherein instead of controlling over all these things, we are the ones who are controlled by these things.  Just now I realized clearly that “control over” is totally different from “over control” You can barely ask yourselves which one I am in?

Even myself when I write this sharing, I feel ashamed because the reality is most of the time my mind is diverted from other things, temporal things in this world. I even spent more time for work, than to have quiet time with our LORD.  So what’s the point I am writing this? Simple, this is a general message for everybody, a wake-up call.  What happened to your favorite bible verses? JOHN 15:7? and yet you are still remaining in this world not with the LORD. How about Matthew 6:33? You know this verse since your childhood isn’t it? you even recite this during children Sunday school. What did you seek? Pleasure?

Self satisfaction?  In other words, what is your priority and focus now? Do you have any plan? We are not contented because we want to be appreciated and recognize with all of these possessions that we are in and updated on trends. Ang babaw noh? Ewwwww! What a shame.  Okey let’s make tagalog nman, sorry kasi we have readers from other countries and they need to understand our sharing.  Gusto ko lang now I emphasize sa tagalog itong mga susunod na sasabihin ko para masarap sa damdamin natin. Heheheh. SAbi ko nga before bato bato sa langit ang tamaan MAPURUHAN SANA! Sorry friends I don’t make any excuses.  Here we go.  Pag nasa church ka anong ginagawa mo? Nasa church kaba dahil sa mga kaibigan mo lang? parang barkadahan? Andun kasi mga kaibigan ko eh kaya dapat andun din ako, kahit hindi ko naiintindihan kung bakit. Kaya nasa church ako gusto ko magpasikat kasi talented ako eh, andun kasi ung crush ko, kelangan galingan ko. Ang popogi natin at ang gaganda diba? Tsk tsk.  Kunwari nag seserve ako kay GOD, pero kaya andito pa din ako sa ministry kasi may love life ako dito eh, si brother ang gwapo at si sis ang ganda.  Mas gusto ko kasi makinig ng mensahe sa church about sa lovelife kesa sa mensahe na mas makakatulong sa paglago ko bilang tunay na Kristyano. Ano sasagot mo? E Kuya Noel kasi biblical nman ung sharing about sa lovelife  na sinasabi ni Pastor or sinasabi ni brother, biblical yun kaya wag tayo judgemental. Hahaha! Wag kang plastic, kasi pag sinunog ka sa impiyerno ang baho mo lalo. Try mo, dba pag may nasusunog na plastic ang baho diba? 

Kahit bali baligtarin mo man ang sitwasyon, alam natin lahat kung ano ang pinag uusapan natin. Nag chu church ka? Eh d mo nga mabati ung kinasamaan mo ng loob dati? Ni hindi ka marunong magpakumbaba? Tapos pag worship nagtataas kpa ng kamay? D kba nangangalay? O baka nman hindi ka nagpupuri sa Panginoon kasi hanggang ngayon observant kpa din? Nagpapatuloy tayo sa ministry kasi para lang may masabi na may ministry tayo kahit wala na sa puso natin. Sa youth ministry kaba? Sa programming? Sa music? Sa word ministry? Elder kba? Youth? Prayer warrior ka? Usher? Anino ka ba? Kasi ang itim na ng pagkatao mo eh.  Kaya nga pag na rebuke ka ng Pastor mo or ng leader mo nagtatampo tayo agad, kasi ayaw natin tumanggap ng tama, kasi tayo lage ang tama eh. Selfish kaya ang lansa lansa ng amoy eh.  D ba tayo nahihiya nyan kay LORD? Wag tayo magtuturo ng pagkukulang ng iba para iligtas ang sarili natin sa katotohanan, at kapag may mali tayo accept it wag na tayo mag justify kung alam nman natin sa sarili natin na may mali tayo at pagkukulang, mahiya tayo sa mga sarili natin at  higit sa lahat sa Panginoon.  Wag tayo titingin sa tao, kahit mga lider man natin ay hindi perpekto, nagkakamali nagkakasala, pero hahayaan mo ba na dahil sa bagay  na un eh madadapa ka? Unang una,  hindi ka nman maililigtas ng mga Pastor mo, o mangangaral mo, sila man ay instrument lang kaya nag dapat natin pagsumikapan ay ang tumingin sa Panginoon lamang.  Bro. Noel, alam ko nay an… basic teaching yan, Weh? D nga? E BAKIT HINDI MO GINAGAWA? ALAM MO PALA EH.  Just to remind us mga friends and readers na sa Science though we know the formula and even made it unless we went through process and make it work, masasabi natin na tagumpay tayo.  Unless walang application and output quiet ka na lang.  Kaya nga minsan paulit ulit ang preaching kasi wala pang makitang output sa atin eh, wlang positive outcome, walang changes.  We are not really serving the Lord, we are serving ourselves.  True! Kaya when most of the time I watched a documentary clips sa internet about hell? Sharing about the reality of hell? D nako nagtataka na sinasabi na maraming mga kilalang tao dun eh, non Christians, and even Christians huh! May mga pari din dun, mga Pastor, mga Musicians sa Church yan ha? What does it mean? Kaya if you are not really serving GOD genuinely better stop now, kasi walang ipokrito na papasok sa langit. Brother and Sister, kahit maghapon ka magtatalak dyan at magkakakanta dyan at sumasayaw, tumutugtog, gumagawa sa ministry, or even doing some good works for others, lahat yan useless.  Pag minalas malas kpa nga baka tamaan kpa ng kidlat eh, dahil lapastangan ka sa kanya.  Don’t even think that you are holy or you feel the presence of God, kapag ginagawa ko ito, pag ganon, I feel the spirit of GOD.  Nah..nah…nah, hindi spirit ni GOD yan, baka nakainom ka lang, espiritu ng alak yan. Alam mo kung ano tawag dun? EMOTION, emosyonal ka lang.  Kasi ang tunay na nakakaramdam sa holy spirit ay may pagbabago.  Kaya pag nakaramdam ka na bless na bless ka, oh LORDDDD……I feel your presence, tapos madamot ka? Selfish kpa din? Pasaway kpa din? Mas inuuna mo pa din ang ibang bagay kesa sa LORD? Puro ka lovelife??? Puro ka pasikat? Hindi mo alam ang mga bagay sa mundo at mga bagay sa langit, hindi mo alam ang if you are compromising or not kasi you are not reading the word of GOD. 

Mga friends, bros and sisters. Mga blog readers, today is my dayoff sa work, sabi ko I want to rest and I did. After 2 hours of conversation sa skype sa family ko and I thanked them kasi pinadalhan nila ako ng bacon and salted egg. Hehehe I am very happy, kasi its not the item na nagpapasaya sa akin, kundi ung effort nila na they remembered me, msarap sa pakiramdam, I feel blessed.  You know what? Ganon din naman sa PANGINOON, it’s not about our offering its about our genuine thoughts and effort to make the LORD blessed. GOD knows if He is our priority, if He is the reason why we are giving our time and efforts, surely He knows.  Our time is running fast, we may be not anymore here in this world when the time comes, we don’t know but we need to do things and give priority to eternal things and not of this world.  If you are for GOD make changes today, if not you better practice to put your fingers on the fire.

Romans 12:2 “And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.


Luke 12:34 “For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also”.

Sabado, Oktubre 25, 2014

HAPPY 2ND YEAR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND MY BABY WIFE :)

HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY TO US! GOD IS FAITHFUL

REMEMBERING WHERE IT ALL STARTED :)

After Sunday worship, nagpapasama saken si Vino para dalawin ang aming ka churchmate na girl na saleslady sa plaza fair that time, sympre part yan ng aming soul winning sa church especially sa aming youth department, visitation and kamustahan. Madalas kasi itong aming ka sister eh busy sa work, after nya kasi mag worship eh need nya na agad umalis para humabol sa trabaho, so wala na time para makausap pa namen sya.  That time ako naman, I just go with the flow sa mga lider ko if may follow up, Masaya nman kasi and sabi nga ng kanta I love this family of God. So, follow up ditto, follow up doon, visit ditto visit doon. Oo nga pala, itong ka sister namen na ito, shes very shy type and pretty slim  huh.
Hehehe. Maganda sya pero saken wala nman ako motive na manligaw kasi ako si Noel, mayabang daw kasi ako eh and kala mo kung sino feeling pogi. Ahhahaha. We visited her if may time talaga.  Nakakasama naman namen si sis pag may service and may meeting especially pag available sya, kc minsan kahit galling sya s work pupunta ng church yan para makiisa sa amin and pag may cleaning and décor activity she was there to help, cowboy eh kasi kaya nya gawin ung mga work na pang lalaki, masipag talaga malinis sa halos lahat ng bagay.  Hanggang sa tumagal, naging part na sya ng aming music ministry, syempre kakanta yan at ako ang gitarista (hehehe, pagkakataon nga naman) hahahaa.  Joke lng. But before that nag duet pa kami ni sis eh, part ng offering. Wheeewww, mdami pa kaming pinag samahan na activities, di ko na iisa isahin pa kasi baka abutin ako ng madaling araw may pasok pa ko bukas J

OVERNIGHT PRAYER MEETING

Si bro Escobert talaga pang asar, kasi nakaupo ako sa table sa church during our overnight break sa church ksama ko si sis, sabi ni ka escobert, sis wag ka titingin sa mata ni noel kasi may kamandag yan, hahaha baka ma inlove ka dyan. Echos! Hehehehe. Palabiro talaga itong si ka Isko, no comment nalang ako and I just continue to talk with sis, then suddenly she drop her head to the table, inaantok na siguro si sis di ata sanay mapuyat eh, kaya ayun alam ko may pasok pa din sya kinabukasan, so there was this thing na coming into my mind na napakasipag nman ni sis and may time sya kay Lord to spent time overnight though may pasok pa yan kinabukasan, sacrifice.  I told myself na the in the future the man that will spend life with her will be definitely lucky, then that time I lift my hand to her head and touching her hair like a little girl while asleep. Wala naman saken un, I just think that for a while. 
 
Days has passed, Sundays, Fridays lahat na ata ng days na meron ako sa church, marami kaming bagay na pinagsamahan especially church activities, but hindi nman ako madalas na kasama nila, day by day I have known this woman like never before.


NO. 26 IS THE NUMBER

December 24 -Sabi saken nung isang ka sister ko sa church, papasama daw sya saken bibili ng panregalo na shirt sa Isetann Recto, so ako naman sympre gentleman ako eh, so sabi ko cge I have time naman, Ahahaha. Pero may pakiramdam nako na para sa aken ung shirt na yun.  Ang pogi ko talaga. Ahahaha. 
December 25-  Christmas time ayun, we went there at Isetann and eat muna sa Jollibee, swerte kasi libre ako eh. Sarap kaya ng libre. And then ayun, she bought one shirt na molecules ang tatak ang color ay light blue with white, ganda bagay na bagay saken wala pa ko jacky chan non eh,a kaya nga ibabalik ko ulit ung sixteen packs ko. Haha.  
TAKE NOTE MGA BROS AND SIS, FRIENDS AND BLOG READERS.  Pag si LORD ang nagbukas ng daan and its in GOD’s will IT WILL HAPPEN.  I have my prayer sa spiritual life ko, sa family ko and sa lovelife ko, kasama yan sa ilan sa mga personal prayers ko and every overnight.  So with this I am giving you an introduction when and how it all started.
December 26 – I  found myself at the gate of sis sa Ilaw ng Nayon, dun kasi sya nakatira eh, alam na alam ni kamoteng Dan yang street na yan kasi madalas sya dun eh, buddy buddy nya kasi yung kapatid ni sis na si bongbong, hehehe. Madalas siguro makikain dun si kamote.  Bakit ako nasa gate? Well, hinatid ko si sis after namen ng Gawain sa Church, sabi ko sa sarili ko, this is it, this is my time MY TIME IS NOW parang si John Cena! Eto ang malufet lakasan na ng loob eh, sabi ko kay sis di ako aalis sa gate nila hanggat di nya ako sinasagot. Ahhahahahaha! Malakas ata ang loob ko that time di ko alam, siguro may backer ako eh! Alam ko kung sino backer ko! Hahaha kaya sure yan go na ko. What happen next? Simple lang nman umuwi ako na Masaya na dala ko ang tagumpay!
So mga friends, don’t think of anything or any person, that sis on our sharing here is my one and only God given wife MRS. ELSA DIVINAGRACIA RESUELLO. 
When we got married? After 12 years lang naman. It is not in the plan but this is the perfect time for us.  Weve been together through all these years by the guidance of our Lord Jesus Christ.  I am not after or in analytical thinking on coincidences.  Sometimes d ko maiwasa maisip lang ah, 6 + 6 is 12. 12 years.  Ano ung 6? My birthday is December 6 and my wife birthday is January 6. 6 + 6 in different view would mean as well 26.  I got the sweetest YES dated December 26! And I tell you what… TODAY IS OUR 2ND WEDDING ANNIVERSARY.  Because this is the day that the Lord has made for us to become one OCTOBER 26, 2012.   

It’s a long journey right? But it’s worth waiting, because God’s time never fails.  I always thanked God for another year of our life as we celebrate the day God bind us in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, for better or for worst.  Till death? Nope coz death only is for physical but the memories lives which we cannot be separated.  I thanked God for having my baby Elsa one of my precious gift I ever have. As we celebrate this 2nd year of our wedding anniversary I am overwhelmed that she is my best friend, my sister in Christ and my wife. I always tell her that for me every day is our anniversary coz God’s love and guidance for us is everyday it is new every morning, every day and every year. HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY MY BABY ELSA. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MMMWAAAHHHHHH!